aethoria

Title: Time Lapse
Author: Aethoria
Summary: "The thought made me want to turn back and drive my car off a cliff if only to forget ‘we’ ever existed..."
Notes: This is the draft to my first jaeho fic evvvvveeeeeeeer YAY! It's not very good but i figured i should let you guys choose whether or not i should continue this.




It was a huge mistake coming here; back to the place I left you standing so many years ago. I find it incredibly annoying how you can be so cliché about something so monumental. I was hoping this’d be something more surreal…

I say a silly joke and you just laugh with tears running down your face and suddenly your back in my arms again swaying to my whispered apologies and promises of love.

I should have known things like that never happen in real life…

Things didn’t work out as planned, I can tell by the way your lips tighten and how you lean back slightly that the drama I caused back in high school still plagues you just as it haunts me. I can feel the numbing sensation I’ve felt for years begin to fade and I’ve regained that stupid obsession I used to have of always needing to touch you. The way your skin felt against mine always made me feel incredibly happy and safe. I know I sound like such a girl but that’s how you made me feel and sometimes I couldn’t stand it.

I’m a man for Christ sakes!

I was the future heir to a multi-billion telecommunications company and the only son of the most prestigious family in Seoul.

Jung Yunho wasn’t destined for mediocre things such as love. I was to be a successful business man with a loving wife and children not the secret lover of a middle-class high school dropout who worked two jobs and shared an attic with a drag queen.

Four years have come and gone since I made the stupid mistake of letting you go.

For four years I’ve been in denial of time’s schedule, I simply chose to ignore the icky feeling in my heart and buried my soul in the success of my company. I chose to forget my ability to love because quite frankly I knew I wouldn’t be able to forget you or start a life with some else.

Four years in which you could have easily found some else to love you the way I couldn’t. You could have found someone else who wasn’t afraid of taking risk.

The thought made me want to turn back and drive my car off a cliff if only to forget ‘we’ ever existed.

I felt jealous at the thought of someone else touching my Jaejoong, someone else sharing your smiles and pleasant laughs. It felt wrong to feel this though.

I know I owe you happiness and I also know that I should let you have it even if it isn’t with me.

You haven’t moved since I got here and I can see the fear creeping into your eyes as you keep leaning back as if you’re trying to protect something…

or someone…

Wait…

Who’s that hiding behind you?

He looks a bit young to be your lover unless you found a love for pedophilia while I was gone…

Eww I just freaked myself out…

“… Hi”

Great…

I haven’t seen the love of my life for four years and all I can muster out is a cheesy hi…

“Hey”
You seem uncomfortable and I can’t hide the fact that I REALLY need to touch you right now.

When did I become such a pervert?